hello there, this exists to help my failing memory remember things I would want to remember a few years down the road.

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Watched Enchanted with YT today.
Awesome, laughed so much.
Yes, some parts are really corny... but I guess they do address issues close to us.

"Happily ever after". Does it still exists today?
"True Love"- just a day's infatuation or is it through lots of dates and understanding each other..?

It's really worth a watch. Almost 2 hours long and I never got bored.

Had a good time with YT and our hoodies, LOL.
And, I found it!!! (: One down, many more to go.


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It's the relief that it is over,
then the disappointment that you know you could have done better.

Oh well.

Moving on, next proj.

Looking forward.

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Psalm 51:12
Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

There are times you feel like giving up, but He won't let you. 0 comments

I was just bloghopping and found some of the blogs of the new design friends I know from CDS and 2D Art and I found this.
Ripped it off Christian's blog.

(I look retarded in the picture)
And I think that design people are cool. Haha.
As much as I complain about how much I dislike lecturers here, but I must admit the environment of the school is good, everyone is interesting. <:
Just feel blessed to be able to do what I like doing.
Then I look back and wonder how come it was so difficult deciding. But I really thank God for those people who gave their words of wisdom.
And poof, one semester is over.


I really don't want to let this holiday slip by 'cause the next one is far far away.
The previous one was spent mopping around because no one had time for me.
So I am going to pack this one up and do many things.
The list is inexhaustible.

And I will get down to crossing off the list when I am done with the B n Bs.
My dear B aka Bernice is gone in some faraway land. ): Jasmine's going to be gone soon.

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chittychittybangbang, chittychittybangbang, chittychittybangBANGGG~

Hmm, it's 6 am.
It's gonna be printed real soon <: 0 comments

The mind is holidaying,
The heart is burdened,
The body is sleepy.

I think I need to go yoga.

It's a great Saturday.
Celebrated Jiali's birthday <:
Had funny games with the caregroup at the fav yhope free hangout, dhouby mrt basement.
Went to Mustafa with Cong and Steven.

The g33k in me went loose.
Those gadgets...
The psp slim in white, Samsung T10 player (! Finally found it. 309. so not worth it), Sony cybershot T20 and T2.
Oohlala.
Farrer Park is amusinggg. Some people actually went to draw mustache on a S.H.E giant poster.

God made me an honoured servant to do His work.
I made myself a juggler. 0 comments

END BLOCK (:

Handed up the Children's Book which costs a night's sleep.
Not that satisfied with it but it was something to come up with a book <:
Thank You Zane Soh for your help and countless wake-call calls.

1m by 1m board took 2 days.
It's cool to use a easel, but uhm, not that practical ._.
I still enjoy painting on floor like all the banners done so long ago.

Hoho.

Camp Communications,
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Hol, Hol, Holiday.
Come knocking on my door.
I have been waiting for you~~~

I haven't start illustrating my book, due tomorrow morning at nine am.
>:
2d Submission is later. So that's one down.

I pray to see Yo! Mag looking all pretty and proud in everyone's hands during Anniversary.

I have been underworking because my bed has been looking more comfy than ever.
After this weekend, I will really be a much more sane person.

Anticipating Christmas preps though I am poor!

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Feeling groggy.
Slept from 8pm to midnight then worked till six plus just now and tried power napping.
BOO. Think I was too tired.
Was lucid dreaming, meaning being aware than you are dreaming when you are about a ghost, dreamnt that daddy came home from HK and that I got lost in Tampines interchange and forgot my precious paints.

Uhm...
Hope everything goes well later.

Lord I pray that I will be able to rest on the journey,
that you will be with me today, that my proposal for the childrens book will be a-okay, that you will give me creativity to paint like how you paint skies, and that this night of chionging yo!mag will be done for you and dependent on you.

Amen (:

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James 4: 2
You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God.

Hmm...

Tired.
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Was refreshed and yet re-stressed.

This week has been madness. I cannot really recall the exact happenings but I know everything went past in a blur and it was rather horrible. There were a few school minor deadlines and the camp comm stuff deadline is drawing nearer and nearer and up to our necks. The motivation is low, especially in school, because we are doing fine arts and abstraction which normally results in me drawing T_T everywhere. As such, the willpower is super low and it just affects the mind to be mentally tired and the body refuses to work.

Today was a good break. Sometimes I feel that ESS' sermons can be similar in some aspects, but today's one was good for my wearied soul. It was like a continuation of a casual chat with Freedy this morning.
9:51:52 AM f_(e_e)_d_y. inspiration ? tsk tsk tsk... rmb to call debbie and ruiyong..:
God loves ya lays
9:51:57 AM f_(e_e)_d_y. inspiration ? tsk tsk tsk... rmb to call debbie and ruiyong..:
so stick close to Him all rights
Simple, but we often grow too complicated for simple truths.

Coming back to the Source again and singing "you laid aside your majesty" reminds me of the good old caregroup leading days, because we sing this song quite a few times, because of kar's then-limited guitar skills and my so-not-there vocals. I have been reminded again and again about His faithfulness through those days and I know it is the same now.

These few days have been feeling so inadequate in skills... and other complicated feelings. Sitting beside Jiashern makes you feel hopelessly slack and amateurish yet our self termed philosophical discussions are really quite interesting. He asked me if I would exchange something that matters to me a lot to be a top designer, a top artist or whatever I want the most for. I answered "Nope." rather unhesitatingly. Before I went to Poly, my second bro-in-law was all for me going overseas and getting my degree, coming back to spore and working for some huge MNC and be rich and young. And I told him, "but I won't be happy. I want to be a designer." (actually I don't recall saying this aloud, maybe I answered him in my mind.) Then he asked if I want to live in a big house and have lots of money... and I said I like small houses, which is still true today and I am not really for being very rich. I just need enough.

And I wondered if all these will still be true. And how God will use me in this field.
I am so not there yet. But then again, how there is there...?
"We will get there"- Cong said this is my fav phrase.
And I still believe it. I just ask God to make that little faith stronger.

There are some things I need to fill and get together, and I know He is patient.
Which is great, because I am not.
I need more directions and revelations, and I know they will come.
When I am ready.

Meeting with Y-comm this evening was a tad disheartening.
I feel that I am close to my limits, but I won't give in and be scraped dry...
Things will work out in the end, because we are not in control but He is. He won't mess up his church's celebrations (:

And I met xin, ying, jasm and pang!
I miss you guys so.
And jo and ber.
Everyone is so busy. But i am thankful we still try to meet up.
And thank you for listening to me rant.
Soon, soon.

A big Thank You to some people with their timely messages and jiayous and er, "equipment"-
Rachelfong for your many random timely msgs, Sarah, Jonquek and your compassion, Cong and Steven for surviving this morning tgt via cyberspace, Ian for your charger, EC for your camera, Y-comm team for "team leadership" (aka one for all all for one. one die, all die.), the clan, YT for telling me our papa in heaven will kill arrancars, shuz, and the list goes on... and yea, thanks God. :D 0 comments

really want to upload these,



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The silent treatment

It is interesting to note that everyone is very generous with their "woah, so nice", "you are crazy lah!" and "omg, so pretty!" and other similar compliments, but not at all with their "hmm...ugly...". Haha. Everyone gives the silent treatment when they see something they are not impressed by.

Down with painting and soon 1m by 1m abstract piece, weak smile*

Today I sat down in between my classes and breathe and plan. I think it is possible... everything. Today I had chicken leg pasta from Jupiter Cafe and I like it very much. *crosses arms and bwahahahahaha. Today I painted my iguanas till 830, thank God Jasmine and other classmates are around.

Tonight I shall go read The Little Prince.

(AYE is it me or is blogger down? I can't upload photos. Reply please, esp Mac users. Arigato.) 0 comments

I had a lousy dinner so this entry is going to be random.

I had a weird dream last night.
I dreamnt that Pamyeo's brother, aka Harrison Yeo, has an iPod with an external memory card, and it was 1Gb or smthg. Then for some queer reason, I felt so upset I went to buy a 8Gb (?) memory card for him. Then Pam got jealous and emo-ed on her blog.
This is likely to be the remix of how I was upset that Philo's card reader cannot read ec's camera memory card and the mental reminder that I got to go and visit Pam. -_-

This morning I went down to Mount E to visit her and got lost. The hospital is eerie even in broad daylight. She looks good and relaxed sitting there watching heroes on her new MacBook with leopard. *glares. Then I dashed down to heeren in record speed to meet YT and Zhiying to look at YT's wall. Her work is going to be painted on one of the walls there in the noise showcase! But i don't like the Noise guy from the council, he seems very yaya to me.

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I feel loved when people put me in their agenda, or even above their agenda.
I guess everyone is very busy... or have too many friends that some don't include friends in their agenda. Maybe I am guilty of it too. I haven't seen many precious people for a very long time.

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Enjoyed post service activities yesterday (:

(edited the photos, BUT BLOGGER THE BOOGIE IS DOWN. update later ): )

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I don't know why this block is just very draggy, and I have random bouts of unmotivation. I got many things on my hands, and I am here at blogger window. hehehe.....

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Am really glad that Philo is back from her trip. Had post-post service activities at Icekimo with her, Puay, Cong and Steven yesternight. Loved their D24 with durian waffle (SHIOK), horlicks with malteases, milo dino, snickers and other quirky flavours.

(heyo clique, wana head there? and I'v never been to Ben&Jerrys with you guys altgt leh. mid-Dec okay:X)

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Work Work Work.
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I don't know why I am awake now, dozed off earlier and just woke up naturally.

Blocks always supersonic-pass when one is kept busy.
And this last block of the year is exactly halfway through!
So happy that I don't have to crack my brain to think of random journal topics and no more still life drawing (!).
(Oh, it just started pouring outside.)
I had a good day today (which is yesterday). Started the day with my fav breakfast in Des Canteen because I reached school at 830 -_- (when lessons start at 9). I have been misjudging the sky, keep thinking it will rain. And when I decide to go late, it rains.
And everyone drives slowly -> traffic jam -> late for class.

Only had Creative Writing today because Wee wanted to take a rest. No one minds of course. Headed to Tamp Lib. Ooo, first time there. Got some design magazines (They got ComputerArts siaaaa) and books and some some children's book. Nowadays the kids no life... the books so... thick one. I sieved out the illustration heavy ones and read them, borrowed a few nice ones and ate before heading home. Mum bought crab for dinner. (:

Next block, gonna have Applied Illustration with many of the ex-class people, which we all still refer to as "our class".

This is us some time this week, during Dan's birthday celebration.

I had a great Deepavali, lol. Great to have a day off. My er jie and her family brought me to Jack's place for my very belated birthday meal and she got me a pretty white and green puma watch. Went to visit my cousins and it was miserable when they were talking about churches swallowing money and they refuse to listen to me. What is happiness to you, really.

I didn't know grass and stars are friends. 0 comments

Got a message from Shuz, it reads:
Heys lays, ya shepherd which is my sheep is out of town. call me whenever need help or talk yea? :)

Sweet. Thank you Shuz.

It's a chilly stormy night and I am living in the consequences of my procrastination. Eating sardine, typing journal and keeping those eyes open.
3 more weeks to go.

3 intensive weeks mixing paint and painting. It is ironic that the huge Guides backdrop I got to paint never daunt me much but looking at the 1m by 1m wood board makes me want to faint. 3 weeks to come up with decent story and illustration for a challenge I chose to take up. 2 weeks to make sure yo!mag looks as good as it can. 2 weeks for campcom. 2 weeks to playlist.

hehehe. Its gonna be a ride, and I will hang on! 0 comments

Worrying.

My head is going to explode. pppppooooooooofffffffff!
Mangled bloody remains.

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A fun Saturday. Spent half the day (literally 12 hours) outside. Met Philo this morning before she and the rest flew off to Thailand for LC and power of praise.
I hope this trip is like a treat for you, shepherd (:

Went for Harvesters' meet which ignited a little nostalgia...? The scenes of my high school which I have a Love-Hate relationship with just flashed past, added impact with JonQuek jumping around on stage, haha! Had a simple yo!mag meeting after that and oh man, we really got to get started. Please pray for us, because I think this is beyond us, with the limited time, skills, people..

Enjoyed the simple and important message and the fellowship after that!
We left egypt and headed for Cinne. Ate, club21-ed and wow at all the Apple stuff. The musicians at the mixers and sound stuff; the mac users at the Leopard OS and iPod touch.
Greedy greedy heart wants everything.

We somehow went to Heeren to shop and then decided to Ben & Jerry's!
Nothing like ice cream to perk my day!


R.I.P therapy, Halloween special! The super cute chocolate tombstone.
The guys had Fossil Fuel. Ben & Jerry's rocks. So I think I got a little hyper and chatty...
Indulging in some sort of denial... :X cause Home = still life drawing T_T
But I enjoyed my time with a third of MinOps. And maybe Ben will stop calling me anti-social.

Yesterday, I was in denial too. Oh no.

YT, Zhiying and I went to do this silly thing after lunch with some of the classmates.
Now that we are taking different modules, it is tougher to identify with one another. But the same T_T feeling is similar...? Haha.

And, I finally find out why people can actually start a Colour Wheel company.

Because painting one takes effort!

Caregroup this week was unique and different too. It was a shit caregroup, literally. Halfway through games, the neighbour complained about the dog being distressed. It was the dog of one of the guys who stayed at the SP ministry house. The dog was upset of being locked up in the bedroom toilet because it ironically, needs to shit. So when we let it out, it shit-ed. And Thank God for pro people in the cg esp Mama Xinyi who cleaned it and handled it well. I like the other dog. So much quieter and cuter. Same pref for kids :X

The caregroup ended with us linking hands and just praying for one another. That touched my heart. I used to think Ycomm is exceptionally busy with camp prep. Apparently everyone is in Quarter 4. Around me sat so many finite and limited people, unable to handle the workload. But around me sat so many warriors and conquerors who have fought through all the quarters too and are going to. Great strong people despite the small or skinny frames. Haha. Thank you, caregroup.

And, here I end my denial ): Drawing time. (T_T because it is still life)


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