Today's photoshoot attempt can be summarised in



this.

We got caught by unfriendly malay station man and he told us we need a letter to take the photos. But by then I already went up a train took the interior and came back down.
Some other pathetic and no-mood-to-edit photos:



never ending road



the wait is too long for some



love the entire colour of that place,
this mood the beign and brown brings.

So Zhiying, you missed out nothing, we will head somewhere better next time!
Hope you found some lomo love in the land of lomo!

Undefeated, we (YT and I) headed to TigerTraslate Museum.
It's really not what the name suggests, it's more like an adventure trail.
Some of the stores in the Ann siang/chinatown area lent a teeny bit of their storespace to the tiger translate artists, so you got to walk round to see all the artworks. It's like a piece per shop, had ten altogether. We went to like 8, 'cause 2 of the ten locations are pubs and they are dark and flooded with drinking people. See what?
It ain't that impressive, but the piece by kuanth in Anthropology is mindblowing due to its massive detailing. Ooh.

Love Books Actually, a bookstore on Ann Siang Road.
Love their selection of books. Makes me want to have my own quaint little arty books cafe.
Got this there:



It's a illustrated comic piece by a local artist, xin.
Like the honesty in it, can relate with it quite well.

And I think I've fulfilled my IloveSG pledge!
(And I am never going to hit my bank account target)



I am not a patriot.
But I am patriotic about supporting local artists and local art works, film, illus, theatre, whatever. Supporting them with the hope that someone else will support me if I ever when I come up with something someone will actually buy.

And yes YT, I will buy your postman story once you get it published!

I think the first step to moving on is to know and accept that things will never go back to what it was like last time, even if that means stashed hopes.

I think I got a cavity.
I hope not, I hate dentists.

Watched the two movies I had been anticipating.

Caught Accuracy of Death aka Sweet Rain with xiao xinyi.

screenshot of movie preview, crunchyroll

I kind of like the entire storyline and the flow of the story and the little funny bits injected into it. Loved the scenes where the shinigami will walk with the black dog, at the same pace towards a door in this whole cloudy place, and the door will lead him to the real world, and the door changes every time as his location does. I thought it was cute. The screenshot above doesn't do the scenes justice ):

Watched Prince Caspian a few hours ago with classmates, girls day out again, lol.

It was a massive and impressive production to me. Just look at how many extras they paid here.

"I know Aslan when I see him."
"Why didn't I see him?"
"Maybe because you weren't looking."
"Do you want to see him?"

Do I look?

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Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming. That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat.
2 Peter3:11-12

Saturday night left some thoughts ringing in my head.

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Went to streetfest with Yiyou and Cong to watch iAn play.
I was really quite shocked to see so many Jap enthusiasts, walking around in their super high lolita heels, super thick eyeliners and nice costumes. The thing that reedeemed most of them is the fact that they bothered looking for the right clothes. But other than that... I really dislike cosplayers who look nothing like the anime characters. The worst kinds are free-style ones. 0_0 I saw hippie girls there. Uh, isn't hippie US culture? And girls with kiddypalace fairy wings... Maybe it's my limited knowledge of anime... but... eee.

It was quite interesting when we had lunch with Ian's classmates, especially since they are from TP too. Don't know about him, but I always feel overjoyed when different groups of my friends get to know one another, like how I am amazed that YT got the Klan's number during my bday, or was it the other way round? And how the klan would contact yihui and ask if they are celebrating etc. ^^

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This morning was the most exciting morning of my life. It is also the most surreal one ever.
I never longed for flour so much in my life to ask for it from a youtiao uncle, never felt like my hands were peeling like scales, never felt like I was going to die from paint overdose, and never dreamnt about painting.

but, it is done.
I am proud.
(:

There goes one thing crossed out from the things-to-do-before-i-turn-too-old list.

Checked off almost all the holiday to-dos that I started listing even before Jap ended last block.
This has been a fruitful happy holiday.

I have 3 more days, and I am going to treasure them!

There goes my one week and 6 days.
I would say it has been quite good and happening thus far.

Met Philo on Mon at Rafflescity shopping centre for camp stuff.
It gives me the same feeling like paragon, and makes me wonder if I will grow up to be rich enough to dine in all those pretty places and get to watch all the theatre and dance that I would want to.

Had to help my sis buy ORIGINAL psp game at simlim the next day and stopped by PS to catch up with Ian over Icemonster. If only I can find out how they make their mango thing..

Love to have company over at night, and had plenty on Wed and Thu.
Dear YT came over for some drawing, eating and Tekkonkinkreet on Wed.
The illustration of Tekkonkinkreet is pure madness. Love love the style.
We had fun and happily overslept.

And were late to meet Nuo and Mandark the next morningafternoon.



Drew and sketched looking out of the window at this.
(Photo not edited, just cheated, 'cause the window is purple hahaha!)

Nuo and YT then came over for an impromptu stayover, got Nuo hooked on Tamaki senpai~ and Ouran High, drew more and slept till the sun shone in and it's super atsui ah atsui.

Met the holidaying klan on Fri and went for steamboat. The company was of course great, but the food really suck, and bad food makes me damn grumpy. I hate it when they compromise on the standard just to earn more. Such food business should totally close down. How can they not serve people their best, no passion in their craft, pft.



The only nice thing there was their rice, -_-
In case you are wondering, it's the la mei zi steamboat at bugis.
Hahaha, a quick google search revealed fellow dissatisfied customers.

Went over to clarke quay and stared at the canal pretty waterfront of Singapore.







Like the bright lights there though. Tones of people sitting around chilling.
We didn't do much, drank a little and they were really cute, started pointing their phones at the moving boats and tried panning. Apparently my panning skills suck..

Aish, so that's about it this week.

Oh, finished reading The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, it's been a while since I read a novel. Some quotes from there that moved my thoughts a little, might not be all that lovely to you.

"It's what you have always wanted to accomplish. Everyone, when they are young, knows what their Personal Legend is. At that point in their lives, everything is clear and everything is possible. They are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives. But, as time passes, a mysterious force begins to convince them that it will be impossible or them to realise their personal legend."

"He had to choose between something he had become accustomed to and something he wanted to have."

"Because I don't live in either my past or my future. I'm interested in only the present...
Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we're living right now."

"Oscar Wilde said: 'Each man kills the thing he loves.' And it's true. The mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary person with guilt. We look around at all those who failed to get what they want and feel that we do not deserve to get what we want either. We forget about all the obstacles we overcame, all the suffering we endured, all the things we had to give up in order to get this far."

It's kind of Little Prince style and thought-provoking somehow.

art uploaded by celinecute15 on crunchyroll

Finally finished the 50 episodes of blood+ and sad to say, it was just so-so for me.
Didn't like it very much.

Been reading some design books and I want all the books from AVA Pub man...
And I went ahead and ordered a fisheye lens and the 35mm panoramic adapter.
Film brings me joy, just that the joy is a little pricey.
Can't wait for them to arrive.

~

EDIT
Oh my gosh, I feel like zhng-ing my holga.
Though of course there's more feel to do all these mods yourself using those low-tech methods....
but... aiyo, so tempting.
Thank God my bank account is almost empty. HAHAHA.

man, going to go back to saving.
$132 for all three, hehehehehehe.

Despite the rather shitty night, YT reminded me of our duper exciting day.

She woke me up at the time when we were supposed to be in school.
So after rushing through the long journey, as I walked into the duper happening and noisy campus for Campus Care day, which is like a fundraising thing for needy students, feeling like a freshie, towards my booth, expecting to see some pretty flowers and cactuses, I realised we are selling... potted plants, green green green.



and red wooden clogs.

: O

Oh my gosh, so paiseh.
Everyone is selling candy floss, cheesy hotdogs, making cool airspray tattoos and henna, and we are selling potted plants 0_0

Instant regret hit me for volunteering and I grabbed KYN- partner with same feelings and we ran to tour around the school, giving up our stall to the rest. Lol. But we went back in the end with some food (damn horrible tasting kebab) and decided to laugh and continue selling.

And aye, don't look down on funny design students selling plants which names we never found out okay. We sold like 80% I think. Look at this pretty picture!



Super green club can, hehehehehehe.

So it was a funny CCN, nice seeing Seepeng, Lun and Winstar around too.
Went to get dvds, basheer, develop film (wish me luck) and art friend after lunch.

So the day was good, at least. (:

I feel like I can't be myself in front of you guys.
And I hate that.
I want to tear some apart, but I can't.

I will sit here and watch it drift away,
'cause I don't know what I can do.

Uh, I am not being Emo here.
There are things up my mind,
but I'll sort them out.

):

I am on the third day of my yasumi~ aka holiday now.

Been up to quite some stuff lately, so MEGA UPDATE.

Just edited over eighty photos of my nephew, Isaac's one year old celebration.
Round one was on Sunday, which I actually did up a too-cute invite for. My bro-in-law commented it sounds a little like circus show, which I agree :X



super cute and cheena cake ^^



The super wonderful clique made time to come and even got Isaac pretty clothes. Love you girls plenty.



So cute right~ hahaha.



And it seems like the guests are all very fruitful, it was like a childcare centre okay. But anyhow, this is my other cheeky nephew, Keven and well, my cousin's son which is also my nephew I guess, Xavier.



I personally like this photo, but many of you childlovers out there might think it looks sadistic.

Then we had celebration round two today, since it is the exact date.



sophisticated cake this time round.



Mum was just washed up the dishes, hence the wet top.



Cousin, Nephew, Brother. Same hair aye.
I think that this celeb is for you too. Irrashai.



I think if I send this to Cohesion, that uh, town council propaganda magazine I might win something, HAHA.



I was forced to do this, and believe me, I am as scared as he looks.
'Cause I was secretly thinking of:



hehehehehe.

Through these few days, the parents' day sermon was even more true to me.
I am the best present to my parents. It is really true. I guess any child's presence means much more than any present one can ever give.

"Lord, let me carry the burden of my family, as you carry me"
The idea of them ever coming to Nexus is worse than abstract, but I'll contd to do my best at home. Which is why I am very thankful for what my sis and bro-in-law have been doing.

Went for Cong's grad show on Saturday.



Kinda cool I guess. I have been talking about going to his grad show since I was in sec three, when he was doing still life and other year one foundation stuff. And poof, there goes fyp and graduation. Good job, pal and may you get some decent freelancing job~!

On Tuesday, we celebrated dear shepherd's birthday.



Jia and I dashed from town to north to town to north to town, but it was all worth it. Gave her a little surprise in her room and had dinner with a great bunch at...



the place with him, LOL.



The bunch, missing Kaixiang who was taking the photo.



Eer, they obediently listened to Ben's "act fierce at the cam!" but uh, I am not sure what Cong n KX were doing, hahaha.



Scrumptious cake from Awfully Chocolate. If only my blog has like 10000 readership then I can like demand for sponsership. Pppft, dream on ): Thanks Matt for helping us order the cake, everyone loved it.



Natural scene, Hopies sit anywhere and munch.

After this, went to my first Timbre visit with Philo, Kim, EC, Ben & Cong. Ben gave me a crashcourse on what to get, lol. I just sipped off their drinks. Interesting experience. Someday when I get braver I will go there alone and just listen to the band.



Happy birthday Philo.



This was taken last Oct during my birthday (:
Whatever I want to say to you is in that pretty album already. Looking forward to more birthdays spend together. It hasn't even been a year.. heh.

And, Happy birthday Gwen!

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And to YT, Emo likes to visit me sometimes. We aren't really good friends nor do we get along well. And recently I realise I can always show Emo to the door, and I will. (:

I think being hurt is a funny feeling.

The pain doesn't get to you like how a cut does, with bright red blood oozing out from your skin and that small sense of fear. You cannot see the tangible effects like how you can see your skin with the ugly black scab after a fall.

Yet the hurt just kinds of bites at you, bit by bit, and you feel like wasting away.
It feels painful. A deep inside kind of pain.

Sigh, I cannot express myself properly in words.
And I cannot draw also.

Lays is experiencing a sudden surge of energy and excitement.
I think its's due to the fact that I finished editing the Jap role play script, found links to something to give Issac for his one year old birthday and the prospect of a 2weeks6days break just makes me smile.

I wana watch:


Though that this looks interesting ever since I saw the preview on freedy's blog.

Of course must watch ^

Anyone? anyone? watch togetherrrr?

Considering catching one of the following with xinyi.kaolla (:

Yes, I am one of the lagging pigs that haven't watch this yet.

the trailer looks not bad? poster's really pretty, love the colours. hahaha, random.

And there's between the devil and the deep blue sea with pam, like a month later!
Check it out HERE.

(:
Now to do up the thingy before I get slaughtered by Ruiyong, and ah.. logo...

"Feel what you feel", Dilly Dally says.

One of her many timely words, even when she is dead tired, she listens, and she speaks such words that touch you.

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I have gleefully slurped up my yakult after downing a whole pack of hokkien mee. After discovering that the kopitiam near the staion serves good food, dinner has been getting better. Two more days of eating dinner/supper/lunch/all in one at 10pm, and it's yasumiiiii, byebye japanese. It has been a good time with you, but no, I don't want to see you no more. I shall not do another language module.

Been feeling weird about studying. I think if I ever go back to school, like normal school, think taking down notes on foolscap paper and solving equations, I will go crazy. So used to just doing work already. Watashiwa nihongo o benkyoshimasu ga suki ja arimasen ): (if this is wrong please don't laugh at n0ob here okay)

I am happy that my second issue of iDn subscription appeared in the mailbox today. The feature article is on having a trademark design style, interesting. Got tempted by the basheer book fair and bought a book from the series I have always wanted to, this one on print and finish, smthg like prepress.
0-0 v
(hahaha emoticon kopped from pam's)

Coolios. I want to get the whole set. (so many wants, so little cash)

For someone as annoyingly impatient as me, I would have found some way for confrontation. But this time it seems like I have no rights to do so.
I will enter if it is open. If it is not, I won't do so by force.
'Cause even if I do so, it will be an empty room.

I must be thinking too much, being too sensitive and insecure.
If you think I sound confused recently, I am.
But I will be fine. Dai jiobu desu!

I feel like him now.


There are things that are urgent on hand which I know that by no sleeping or by no eating, I got to get them done. Or risk causing everyone else to not sleep or not eat.

There are thoughts that I wish would go much further into the back of my head and won't bother me so much. I am bothered by how they bother me so much, those stinky, persistent mean thoughts.

I wish all of you well. I am not happy that it didn't quite work out the way I want it to. But I am glad it is working out the way you want them to, at the very least. I would say it is my personal defeat, thank God there is always next year, just that I won't have a motivation of being able to kill a kid.
Lays ah lays, you got to up your fighty spirito.

So I am a ball of blue,
until it's over.

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thank you dear.
oh, our forbidden love.
i still love you,













LEE YT.

hehehehehehe, what were you thinking?

Had a reunion with the zionites for pete's belated.



I think our conversation must never be leaked, tsktsk.



the girlies. we were supposed to "dress up"
apparently I got cheated.

the food wasn't that fantastic.



this is my kebab.
they changed the menu since I went there for pamela's 16th.
(oh my god, pam yeo, 16 leh!)

and this is their act-cool chicken R. I cannot spell.



I wonder if it is my tastebuds or what, sometimes I feel that the price we pay for good food (in the sense that it is expensive and not the usual fare), is not worth it. Sure, it looks better, feels better then CHOMP, aiya... overrated. Or maybe I just don't have expensive taste. :|

The session was still great with the companion. I love how we can be at ease and comfortable with each other though we haven't exactly meet for.... a few months?

This is us during Pete's celeb in oh seven.



and this is us a year later.



(I think Singapore should send their waitors for photo taking classes if they so want to go the extra mile)

Just this one year and so many things have changed. Kkc is sec 4!!! Emu is off her mugging for a while :P Cong is graduating, Pete is in JC! Jon is LM, hehehehe, Rachel's working, Deng's in Poly... and of course, we are all in different ministries.
This bunch never fail to make me feel privileged and determined to keep on...

Go all of you. You matter very much to me.