hello there, this exists to help my failing memory remember things I would want to remember a few years down the road.

I don't really know why, but my eye is swollen. ._. so i look like 0.O now.
My eyebag is like bulging out, very gross.

Quite mentally drained out, due to my bad time management and low morale since the deadline extension... so.. got to manage the new block now too. Friday, Friday, then I will be a happy girl again.

The difference in school now is that I really care about how well I do my work. In sec sch, I had the heart to do well, but it's more of the resigned-to-fate kind of thing, because the academic part of sec sch was just... horrible. Doing what you like to do gives the stress of wanting to do exceptionally well...

Maybe I should take a break from the comp to ease straining the eye...

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Due to certain unforeseen circumstances, I was not feeling too good yesternight and ended up drowning my sorrows in beer. yea right. More like in episodessss of Beck until I completed the entire anime series :X

Today was a day well spent though.
Ended the evening with shoeshopping with Jiayi and God gave this opportunity for us to share life. I thought she was a very serious and scary person ^^", but I saw her heart and concern for the people around her and that touched me too. Thank you Jia.

I do believe that God doesn't place people in different places for nothing. And I am still taking time to discover what I can do in this ministry I am in now. At the same time, also the people placed around me... it takes time to know someone and one can't rush into this kind of matters. Hoho.

Zhiying and I went on escapism mode yesterday and went cruising around Tampines aimlessly... YT has been a very sweet friend, encouraging even though she is busy with her own stuff. So arigato plenty.

And... due to a moment of high-ness, I dragged Zhiying to join DOC (Design Orientation Camp) with me... hope to contribute something to TDS and join in the fun of the vibrant campus life that I never really bothered with. Joining Issac's creative group and not being a GL lah. It would be fun to though... So... I hope the Os people I know who want to come to TDS can get in...! <:

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from Beck the anime.

The anime may be predictable at some parts but I really love Koyuki (the protagonist)'s simple heart. I wonder how it will end. 5 episodes more... doworkdoworkdowork. 0 comments

Today I caused much damage to my attempt to save.
Had photog submission at noon but I woke up at 1145 ^^" even though there were a dozen missed calls. So rushed there on a cab and Thank God the lecturer was late so I caught him and submitted together with the rest. Being late for submission is a big thing at Des Sch :/

I have been stoning at home, doing work damn slowly and feeling horribly sluggish. And that sluggish feeling disappears when I play patapon and watch Beck... which is exactly what I have been doing...

Due to the deadline extension, end block is far away again...

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Instead of drawing penguins, I have been watching BECK.
I think his shirt is so cute. hohoho.

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I feel like watching a moovvvvvieeee.
Thanks to Sharon Goh showing me random trailers and all the people who blogged about watching movies... soon then, Todd Sweeny (by Tim Burton! and featuring Johnny Depp), L change the worLd... etc. hehehe.

Anticipating tomorrow's dinner (: 0 comments

The phoenix stayed over yesternight after supper with cong and lun @ lun's favouritest ChongPang. We had a rather interesting topic about weird people, hmm... It's nice catching up with them over simple meals... The stayover was just a casual one, catching up about northeast happenings, exchanging what's been going on, then konk out time...

Went for airport shooting today and met Amanda ho! hohoho.
It's a small world. And there are tones of fellow photographers at the airport. A huge difference is that they probably do not have a horrible deadline this coming Thursday and they are real enthusiasts. Aye, there is some magic in the new T3's air. There are many families there and they all look sooooo happy, I don't know why. Saw a couple taking wedding shots too but I don't think my shots of them taking a shot are that fantastic ):

Photography is about luck-being at the right place at the exact moment, about being thick-skinned- daring to go damn near people who most probably do not want their faces to end up on your lecturer's table, having a strong nose that will make a good tripod, patience- to wait and wait for the stranger to do that action you want to capture.
hehehe. I hope it is over soon... going to go look through today's shot *gulps.

Crisp the PSP has been serving me well, started on a new series of anime, BECK, from my supplier with an eye patch and spreading the love of loco roco.

Excited about next month, when I only have typo/layout. (though YT they all say its chiong >:) Want to use that month to think about ministry/ hello love communications, spend time with my duperbusy jc dudes by going near their schools to have meals with them, go holga shooting~, shoppingggg, cheer the fyp people on, etc etc.

For now... fighto.

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Getting out of the comfort zone, literally.
Thank you for being patient with me.
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Nights like these can get so exhausting.
Thank God for skype, thank God for adium, and for friends in cyberspace.

School has been busy. I pretty much head home after school to do work if there's no ministry stuff going on. (aye, jasmine, zainu in the making sia)

Had cg with half of minops1 at philo's today, with the sermon talking about sleep. lol.

Been rather happy with what I did for the CD... hope this satisfaction will not diminish as quickly as it normally does.

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I recognise that mild hopefulness
Call it idealistic, call it stupidity,
I hope it goes away soon.

I think I was a stronger person,
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Tomorrow we hit half a month into 2008.
eee, so fast.

I am very happy to be young.
I wish that I will keep having that energy to sleep at unearthly hours and sustain the next day.
When you are young, you can say you want to do something ad just go ahead with it without that much a thought. You believe in the impossible, you dream.
When you are old, man... :/


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Had my happiest photoshoot for photog class yet.
Heartlanders are friendly people, albeit camera shy and conscious.
They return smiles, greet you, ask if you are sent by the government to spy on their business, ask their kids to smile at "jiejie", jokes about changing to look pretty on your photo.

And... I killed two birds with one stone.
I went shopping with the dslr. HAHA.

I have finally understand why I need to do still life, why I need to care about where light shines from in the picture, why I need to spend hours painting...

hope it's not too late.

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Taking care of our body is important!
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I guess I didn't start 2008 on a high note as I would have wanted to in my idealistic nature.

In fact, I started this year in need.
In need of more strength and energy, as the workload piles up and things get more difficult and challenging.

In need of encouragement and much faith, because I really don't believe in myself as much as the people I adore believe in me.

In need of wisdom and some push, to do things that I wouldn't want to- deal with things in the family I would much rather shun, to face areas in which I need to grow, to take care of people and help them to grow.

I read ber's christmas note to me, and it left me touched.
She said that she thinks my 07 is kind of tough- coping with a new school, new friends and environment, a new caregroup, handling relationships, etc.
I don't know why I have forgotten to think about '07 and her note reminded me.

Some old mistakes have left me fearful and uncertain, some old accomplishments leave me wondering "what's next..?"

Had an audio sermon by John C Maxwell regarding stretching ourselves during caregroup just now. I guess I do have "someone sickness"- someones aka people and somethings affect my happiness quite a bit. He put it across blatantly that "you are the only one responsible for your own happiness" and added on that it almost sounds mean but brutally true.
I think people think I am a generally happy person. (is that true?)
I guess I am or I was, I hope I will be one happy girl, and not allow someones and somethings to make me hit lows so easily.

God, when I feel small and unable,
please help me believe in You and in myself.

(haha, i rarely post such entries. Most of the time I only post happenings because I have a valid paranoia that whatever you post on the net can be read by the whole world. And I don't believe in locked entries. I am paranoid.
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My world has been reduced to a viewfinder of the dear Nikon D200 recently.

(photos below are not edited at all, thus not as pretty.)

this is the first attempt at Haji lane.
Headed down there with YT and ZY for our experimental night photography, which was really quite tough for beginners, boo.

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School has started for two days, and it's already kind of busy.

Just borrowed the school's new DSLR, a nikon D200.
I am the first one to use it! Haha, more like my class is the first to use the cameras. Feel rather blessed bout it. <: Going to Little India for field shooting on Sat...

Illustration is getting more fun after the stupid quick visuals too.
I hope to do quick visuals quick...

There's no lessons tomorrow but we got to go back for moses' talk ):

This is just a mundane entry posted because I got a new layout.
Wanted something simple...

I really don't take good care of my gadgets.
Crumbs the mac is dirty.
Crunch the phone flew off the bed twice and it is like... less than ten days old.
Crisp the psp has a stupid scratch.

now now, I can't do this to the Camera. Or I got to pay 2k+.
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