hello there, this exists to help my failing memory remember things I would want to remember a few years down the road.

I guess I didn't start 2008 on a high note as I would have wanted to in my idealistic nature.

In fact, I started this year in need.
In need of more strength and energy, as the workload piles up and things get more difficult and challenging.

In need of encouragement and much faith, because I really don't believe in myself as much as the people I adore believe in me.

In need of wisdom and some push, to do things that I wouldn't want to- deal with things in the family I would much rather shun, to face areas in which I need to grow, to take care of people and help them to grow.

I read ber's christmas note to me, and it left me touched.
She said that she thinks my 07 is kind of tough- coping with a new school, new friends and environment, a new caregroup, handling relationships, etc.
I don't know why I have forgotten to think about '07 and her note reminded me.

Some old mistakes have left me fearful and uncertain, some old accomplishments leave me wondering "what's next..?"

Had an audio sermon by John C Maxwell regarding stretching ourselves during caregroup just now. I guess I do have "someone sickness"- someones aka people and somethings affect my happiness quite a bit. He put it across blatantly that "you are the only one responsible for your own happiness" and added on that it almost sounds mean but brutally true.
I think people think I am a generally happy person. (is that true?)
I guess I am or I was, I hope I will be one happy girl, and not allow someones and somethings to make me hit lows so easily.

God, when I feel small and unable,
please help me believe in You and in myself.

(haha, i rarely post such entries. Most of the time I only post happenings because I have a valid paranoia that whatever you post on the net can be read by the whole world. And I don't believe in locked entries. I am paranoid.
This entry is a rare one that I want to read in 2009 and tell myself that I've grown this year.) 0 comments

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