This something has the ability to make you really happy, exhilarated and feel as though life is all so worth living for. Yet it also has the very ability to tear you apart, break you, allow sadness to creep all over you. And it's a 50-50 chance. Will you go ahead to try for that joy, or will you miss it to save yourself from that anguish?

Read Nuo's blog and I really agree with what she said about freedom.
I am trapped in routines and loaded with things I cannot run away from. If through all this, I find real joy, that will be liberation to that wearied soul man.

Night classes are making me a tad more emo.
I come home to a silent house when my parents are asleep, 'cause I reach home kinda late every day now. And I wonder to myself, what if it's really like that when I/we all grow older. Due to the commitment of work/demands of life and all the manymanymanymany things on hand, you miss the time you can have with people that is much more important to you than those manymanymanymany things. But what if you don't have that choice..?

Idealistic nature makes me adore equilibrium. If I can do all the things I want to do and achieve, and yet retain that passion and gain much joy, and have the ability to spend all the time I want with people that matter so much, that'll be a happy happy life.

For now, I am busy, tired, a little lost, swallowing down all the desires of escapism.