Today Camera was low, so we took no photos.
We watched kungfu panda and I finally understand why "awesomeness" is not corny, loved the opening and ending illus style. I love the happy simple truths animation and anime seek to potray. <3 We had gourmet caramel corn popcorn in pretty pink and white stripe boxes, I think it's a marketing stunt, 'cause the packaging probably cost more than the tiny amount of gourmet popcorn in there. We had Jap food with 99cents sushi, which is just about 20cents cheaper than sakae if you think about it. We walked around Bugis Village. We = Pamyeo and I. : D

So it was a good day before the block officially starts.
The OSIP talk is supposed to motivate me to want to go for OSIP, but instead made me feel I might die there. I am in desperate need to learn how to crack an egg.

Overdue photo from Matthias' farewell:



Waraku is overrated, but I hope you feel the sincerity we often don't show.

"Because moving forward gets you one step closer to your dreams" -the great Wai

"But you can give it up unaffected..?"

I guess not,
But God provided and will provide when I choose to.

I could never ask for a better way to end the block ytd.
Uh, and I slept for eleven hours, whoohoo!
Waste time, but I can afford a little now!

Because it should bring me more joy than sorrow,
Because things change and I cannot willfully demand for it to be the same.

A fruitless trip and wait turned great with a phonecall.
Randomly call up Xin in hope that she might want to catch a movie with me despite the fact that she is supposed to be study, cough cough.
And dear Ber was with her on the way to the airport to fetch Eunice (BerNICE's sister, EuNICE) when I was at WhiteSands.
And we ended up in Popeye's!
Technically we were eating Popeye's on a random floor.

Thank you for such great friends,
who laugh at nothing, and everything.

End Block,
End Block,
End Block,
End Block,
End Block
End Block,
End Block,
End Block,
End Block!

:D

(Actually I am sitting through presentations now, so it isn't really end block.
But submission is over and done with.)

Tsk-ing at self,
Yes I regret not planning my time well this block.
Actually is more of like I plan well, but I am so tired everyday I fall asleep after dinner.
I know I handed up stuff that is decent enough, but not my best.

For now, it's rest time.
I want to go shooting (as in photog), want to watch moviesss, want to...
Before Lap2 comes and kills us. Lap 1 is over, I got three more laps of marathon.

At times like this,
you don't ask if you can do it.
You ask if you can still do it well.

'Cause submitting shit is a very shitty feeling.
And submitting late is not an option.
And I am catching sunrise with Garlic bread and Gardenia bread, who are all slogging away.

I regret sleeping so much. Boo.
Bad time management.

How will we have energy to do this next time when we don't exercise, hmm.

There were supposed to be 40 (or more) excited teens youths running around the luxurious green grass in the botanical gardens and having a picnic. Rain makes ground wet and soggy, so these 40 excited youths turned a Macdonald into a makeshift picnic place.





my new holga accessory- the filter lenses!
Well... 'cause Ben called me all the way from hongkong's tiny shop selling all these stuff, I have to buy ma... excuses, excuses.



We don't look very good here, but yay, shepherds and their sheep. :D
(there, Xin, my short hair looking weird here.
IF YOU ARE READING THIS, GO AND MUG!)

The highlight of the event is probably this:
(when Puay and I went to buy ice milo ._.)



That's when you know your caregroup loves you plenty,



hiak hiak hiak.



WHOSE HAND IS THAT AH. I suddenly cannot remember...

It was quite a good fun short time, stuffing food down, throwing food about and playing some games.

I am on my last Monday of the block, also known as the beginning of the submission week >:(
It was not too bad a Monday, I thought I was going to be fully barbecued and dead but I survived and even had a romantic watery dinner with yt in the triangular gardens. Maybe we should have gone there for picnic instead, they keep the grass there so well at least 10% of our school fees might have just went into those auto watering things that start their own dancing when the Sun goes down and feed those grass-which-we-cannot-step-on.

I have been sleeping way too much this block.
No idea why I am so tired. I have to climb 2m to get onto my bed, and that doesn't stop me, tsktsk.

Oh God, please let my motivation and fighting spirit come back.
Help me to remember I want to do well for You too.

I guess many has figured from the previous entry, or has seen.
Yes, I cut my hair. Never had short hair since I was a naughty K1 kid. Since then it has been long hair all the way. Went to cut my long hair off after I got verbally strapped to the salon chair due to my casual comment and my horrible lack of maintenance to my body.

Shall try to make Cixin "see" my hair here, since she desires it so much she sees it in her sleep.
klan: nice!
cong: looks like mother...
ben: looks like you are 24.
many many people: oh my gosh, what did u do to your hair?/why did u cut it?/were you stressed?
mandark: NICE! very nice!
natt: you look skinnier.
some: you very brave.

So, yah, very mixed reactions. 50% good, 50% bad.
But generally I am happy 'cus it's convenient, hehehe.

Anyway, much more importantly, had a mini celeb for KohKarChianmercyfalloutKKC's sweet 16th!



hide hair



the just-cut-hair-very-short people





smiley happy people



are smiley and happy even when they sit outside Istana park to chat about everything



including their highly spiritual convictions.

;)

I love Zion.

Kar, you have grown so much.
Keep on keeping on and you will go so far.
Know your desires and keeping them in prayers. Jiayou..!

I did something that I have never done since I was five years old,
because of them:

(xin went off first, so she isn't in the photo
but thank you dear for the lego sucker tank,
I will wheel it around whenever I get stuck)

And it is done in utter spontaneity, very much like us actually.
(So much so fancypaper closed on me 'cause it was too late );)

I think it is a good thing,
despite mixed responses.

This group of girls have their way with me.
Thank you all, and jiayou for the upcoming tests..!

We are all so tied down with work I think the next meeting will be in a month's time, I really hope it won't be like this when we all grow up :|

kuayyyyy.

Warning: Highly rant-ish.

"Without the sour the sweet just ain't as"
-Sweet Tangerine, The Hush Sound

Due to the highly common knock-out post camp syndrome,
I slept my weekend away, unintentionally.
So I am kind of lagging in work now.
My mind has been all over the place since this block started, and I only got most of it with me right now.

I am really not cut out for fine arts, especially when it makes me feel exceptionally girly.
I secretly curse the inventor of tjanting and wish that some smarter fella comes along with a wax pen. I am too impatient to do my piece properly and often end up having to redo another.
I can't wait for my patience level to improve!

Now I also learn that no one will care to listen to sad sob stories of lecturers who did not teach anything, nor the hours you sleep, which can be counted with one hand, or any other explanations you can possibly give for shoddy work.

Whatever pinned there is assumed to be your capability. If it's not good, it just get torn down for people to put their oily packet food on. And I guess out there it's like this too.
And I want to get my fighting spirit back together...

I feel like a working adult these few days.
I wake up before the Sun does, rush beyond the yellow line at the bus stop in hope to catch a seat before fellow kiasu people do. School starts at nine, with a (self declared) short lunch break around noon, consultation and critique sessions, trashing of ideas, lecturer feeding my papers to recycle bin, closes at around six. Squash like sardines on the bus, get off for a Sardine 'O (natt got me hooked) due to the hungry-every-two-hourly-stomach, freeze on the way home, eat dinner, fall asleep, wake up in shock, chiong work, fall asleep, wake up before the Sun does, ...

"But I love it"
Yeah, it's true. It's tough, but I really do enjoy it, for some reason unexplainable to myself too.

Today's evening ended with a little blessing.
I went forcing my way through NTUC through the queues of working boring people to find, uh, seaweed, random craving, but found nothing but got elbowed and knocked. Stared at the queue of people buying (false) hope at the toto station, the only queue where people seem so much more willing to wait. Went to the convenient shop near my house and met my mum(!), who was about to drag all the groceries home herself. So she topped up my suppersnacks while I helped drag everything home.

So I have something to eat while working later on...
wo hui jiayou de,
rest of you, jiayou too!

so I found out today that I got cheated, and that the film place @ burlington sells the fisheye lens for twelve bucks cheaper. T.T who tell them to only re-stock now, I never knew they sold accessories, boo.

This being one of the few downsides of today, it was a pretty fruitful day.

I learnt that obedience really yields joy and results, though it probably takes a lot before that obedience. I learn that I talk way too much, but after I rant finish I still want to obey God, which is something the zionites have somehow grown accustomed to, with caleb giving me the occasion tsktsk, and reminders.

Joined the spt team today and contribute the little I can possibly give, then had subwayyyyeatfreshhh with aloy and kaixiang, interesting talk.

Now Lord, pretty please lemme feel well again, 'cause I got a list of pile-ups I need to tackle down. Everyone seems to be sick after camp, God bless the bodies.
Help me to do your work with joy and dependence on youuuAHHHHCHOOOOO, amen.

Recollecting the past hectic two weeks.

Oasis Camp was okay, just that it was really a waste I was really really physically tired to enjoy it to the max. Was barely there for half the camp since there was school. Utter regret for sleeping through the barbecue Matt initiated on Night 3. Got woken up by Sarah and had a talk with her, glad man, didn't waste my third night and then had a short talk with a gang of minops people. Surviving on a few hours of sleep every day is not good, tsk.



Photo with sheep and shepherd (:
Uh, yes I regret making a funny face when they look so nice smiling.



Decided to post this because I feel that it is a personal attack!
The NE guys got this habit somewhere and I tend to whack their hands when they do it.

Oh, and ang puay lin is back!

And... because I hate taking photos during camp 'cause it often looks really bad, just ripped those two off kaolla's blog. You know how in church people keep these photos, take them out a few years later and laugh at them. Think huiying showing NE camp photos to my now cg mates, T.T

Got reminded of God's goodness, understood even more that it takes a pure and surrendered life for God to use in a far greater measure, and that behind every sin we commit is a lie from the devil that we believed. Makes me want to be more aware of my thought process, which often happens too fast for my own good.

*

God has been good and gradually adding on to me.
saikang or not, I know I am learning from it.
Tough time, but He will surely bring me through!

*

Last week was another busy one.
Friday night out with pamyeo <3







Esplanade play.
Their stories are horrifyingly funny.
Loved their media projection and wonderful word play.
Pam will always be my dear atas lifestyle friend.
Why we eat 20 bucks worth of supper each I really wonder...

*

Midweek, had caregroup at Bugis and welcomed Steven Kiap back. Enjoyed good zicha and jidechi dessert. Philo is in Japan now and Ben is flying to HK tomorrow T.T

Had another mini fellowship session in a unique setting. Sent Rachel to the hospital with JonQuek on my brother-in-law's car, thank you Sandrick ='), especially for sending them home. We got home at 3am. Even more unique thing is meeting Dan there when i just saw her a few hours ago.
I wonder why Singapore healthcare is deemed world class but we finally got her poor feet in a cast after three long hours, when we sat and chatted. This friendship with them will always be irreplaceable.

*

School is okay so far.



TextM gives me a little of that want-to-go-home feeling that I get during 2D and 3D art Fun. I think I really struggle with fine art kind of hands on thing. But it is rather fun, silkscreening's cool.

Prepress lecturer's really nice. Going to tour printing fact on Monday I think.
2 weeks later I hope I will have something decent to hand up~

*

Dear ber collected my holga stuff today for me and I walked her home.
So many things to tell her, so little time.
And I really hope to meet the klan next wed~

manymorethingstodonexttwoweeks.
ohmydoubledeckeredeyebags.

The past two weeks have just been simply sleep-deprived and very tiring.
I hate it when I get very not effective due to the weariness.
God, I need a breakthrough.

Tomorrow it's feeling small in an already small room.

Few more hours, how...

I have a deadline in less than 8 hours and I am blogging here... 'cause the stuff are not sent in yet ahhhhhh.
School has been quite horrible, I am not used to the hours, yet.
The three hour breaks are resulting in the increasing pile of library books.

Textile Manipulation makes me feel like I am in sec 2, and I wonder why I chose it over mmfun now. I hope things get better... And when I open my tie die cloth in like 9 hours, I won't have to mop over the fact that I got to redo all of them.

I am enjoying prepress, the lecturer's super nice, and she assured me that designers do earn enough to watch musicals, lol. We are going to visit a printer! Let's hope I don't have to bring all my camp dirty clothes there with me, since it is on the 12th.

And, I think I won't miss camp concert!

And, I think I am going to eat up all my food tonight.
DLoh WHERE ARE YOU.

+edit, 4.21am
Help me to remember this little sense of achievement and relief that keeps me going, and the anticipation of seeing what's on the screen materialise.
It's not a fantastic job, but it's amazing that we still manage yet another deadline.
Thank you cong, philo, dennis, ben ;)

Got some food stocked up for the coming late nights, I can so smell them. (the late nights, not the food)
Went to marks n spencers with Huiying after cg today.
It's really different when one becomes yr cg member, haha, it's nice talking to you yinzzz.
Made a trip to the lib too.

So the butterflies are in the tummy again.
I don't know how many times I have been through start of block.
Each time is the same rojak of feelings,
possibly because they make us change class every module, and the modules just seem to get tougher.

And I'm hungry.

God, the next 4 months, I want more of You.
Need more strength and your touch to make seemingly impossible situations possible.
I want to go for camp ):

Today's one happening day, like how Saturdays are always.
Started the day lying there, listening to the calming sound the rain brings, and got awakened by "wakeupwakeupwakeupwakeup!", so my sheep wakes people up the same way I do.

Met xinyi and went to artfriend to get some stuff for school.
(why did i forget my acrylic spray, why oh why. this is not for school though)
Had a quick lunch and headed over to service.

I have been spending extra time with God the past days and I find that it helps me get in tune with Him at service much easier. Stayed for a short while for camp comm and cabbed (t$kt$k) to CJC with pamyeo for the Ablaze dance concert.

Apparently it was the first concert CJ dance ever had.
Love the opening item very much. The myriad of colours, costumes, activities were so pleasing, so exciting, it made my eyes dart everywhere trying to catch everyone- superheroes, puppets, clowns, school girls. Very circus feel, fun, whimsical, engaging.

Like this puppet item very much too. Thought the girls look really adorable. Tones of hair throwing, hot moves, cleavages and adrenaline later, the concert ended with screams of joy and accomplishment. Overall, it was a good concert, especially with the short amount of time they are given to prepare.

I wonder if I will ever have a taste of the adrenaline pumping, this-moment-is-all-that-matters, the sore and wearied muscles, we-did-it! and all that thrown into a night I will never forget. Someday I will try this out. Life is too short to be scared.

Took the familiar CJ overhead bridge and had a long talk with pamyeo over our fav fries and icecream. Talking to her is always enjoyable, 'cause it's honest and real.

I think the theatre production I am catching with her come Friday will bring another good night and me dying to be involved in one.
We'll see.

Got to wakeupwakeupwakeupwakeup in 6hours.