It's that day of the year,
and it came and went like that,
but it was a day well spent.

Will update about the great fun and good things some time soon.

THANK YOU everyone who remembered, who sent a message, and of course, all you who gave a few hours of your life to me, and shared this day with me, and all you who wanted to, but couldn't make it too.

Penning down some thoughts so when I look back a year later,
I will see if things have changed.

I remember asking some people in the klan,
"so.. how does it feel turning 18?" some time earlier this year.
and they said, "well, not very different from turning 14."

For me... well, it's kinda different.
For one, I think I changed quite a bit.
When I was 14, I was a happy house loving girl, thinking the world is beautiful, so "vibrant" (cough, cough), concerned about boybands (haha, please don't ask which ones), about posing in front of the neoprint machine, about certain superheroes (superman in particular), and about what to do after school (j8 or school opposite or jubilee? LOL)
Oh and I looked liked this!
(I am sorry I pulled you two into this with me, HAHAHA)

Right now, I don't fancy hotpink pigs nor very happy looking things. ._. I don't know what happened. Now I like bloody illustrations, darker themes and I think that it's a dog eat dog world out there, though I am very thankful I am not "out there" yet. I am concerned about... whether I miss any musicals that I wouldn't want to miss, about meeting unending deadlines, about keeping in touch with people... and I don't have to worry about having a lack of things to do.

I thank God we no longer look like that, and I thank Him for finding me along the way.
I know that Hope played a huge part in shaping me into who I am right now. And thank you klan, who has stuck by me all this time. :D

Back to turning eighteen.
I don't feel any particular sense of liberation, regarding the new grounds I can break due to this age because...

Haha, I have done them before.
The next day he asked me about alcohol, lol, which I did touch before today, but don't really fancy.

One big difference will be the whole I-feel-old syndrome.
When you're 14, you feel like you have a bright future ahead of you and many years before you got to embark on another phase of life. Now, each day is pressing nearer and years are flying by. We are moving on from life stations to life stations so rapidly. T_T

Another difference will be a sense of purpose, and a desire to do something more than making myself happy I guess.

These are the things I wished for:
#1 A deeper relationship with God
nope, this isn't a tys-wish/answer, but I have thought about this for a long time.
To grow deeper in faith and in reliance.

#2 A better family atmosphere
Don't worry, there isn't a major problem with my family.
Just that I know things had been better and I know they can be.

#3 People to come back
Many faces popped into my mind one day during service,
faces that I know so well, faces that I used to meet almost daily.
Right now I am not even talking to many of these faces, and I miss them a lot.
And I hope each one will find their way home, or bring their hearts back to the One who love them so much more than I do.

#4 To enjoy the rest of my poly life and to explore and do things that I can only do in a student life!

#5 The gazillion clothes/bags/film etc, because I am still a tad materialistic.
But I am thrilled by all the presents I got :D

With that, and a very dry throat and droopy eyebags,
Good night.
And Happy Birthday XIN, I love you many many. :D