If you can see how someone will be like 5 years later,
will you see why you need to keep hanging on,
or will you give up?

I have been amazing at wasting time recently.
It's like I know I have so much work to do, and my mind spaces out and empties itself of any constructive thought, and my hands surf around aimlessly..

and hours fly by.

These two months of Integrated Project made me rather tired, tired of design sometimes,
it's nice seeing things in better shape,
but... still far from amazing myself with what I can do with these hands.

And due to chatting with friends, I realised ever since I started this whole design thing, I haven't been doing any much with my life, since in church I do design, in school I do design... and free time is spent looking and criticising designs (auto already), and hanging out with people of course.

When I was younger I actually read manga, watch anime, cycle, exercise (HAHA)...
In primary school I actually had many hobbies- I collect all sorts of junk (coins, phonecards, stamps, stickers, beads, colour pens), I cycle when I can and feed stray cats near my Dad's workplace, I attempt to make food (even if it's just rootbeer Popsicles for Mothers' Day I think), I read scrapbooking magazines, I play lego.
And when I grew up, I got too focused HAHA. lost all that zeal and hyperactivity.

I always think if I publish a book about my life, the reader will fall asleep after half a chapter. I have this certain fear of being mediocre, of being normal, of being.. boring.
I hear tales of people roaming to far ends of the world, seeing sights, experiencing things, hear of people giving all for a dream they believe in and seeing it come to past...

and I wonder if I can do all that, and keep to God's plan too.

(See, told you I am awesome at wasting time these days.)

I am so sorry Nuo and Mandark, I had caregroup and it's a movie date and we watched...

:X

It's as quoted from a guy friend, "slow and beautiful". I agree that it is indeed a lovely show.
It's just the kind of show you want to keep and watch again a few years later or a few decades later.
I don't want to spoil it by describing it, so go ahead and watch.

*little spoiler alert*
This man in the show made a clock that moved backwards, in hope that time will move backwards and the son he lost during war would come back to him.

At times I wish I can turn back time to last week, because if I can, I will do up the work that I said I would....haha, right. At times I wish I can turn it back years to relive a certain period or a day or even a certain moment to ease some regrets.

But most of the time I thank God He made time the way it is, made our understanding the way it is, so we live our regrets, we carry them with us, and we learn from every bit of the pain they bring. I thank God I don't know the consequences of many things, if not I might never have done them, and never have grown. And I love surprises too much to want to know what's ahead. Because I do not know what the future holds, I can only trust in the One that holds my hand as I venture into the unknown, which takes only a matter of time, to become familiar grounds actually.

Life is funny like that.

“Life can only be understood looking backward. It must be lived forward.”

-from the movie

For what it’s worth, it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit... start whenever you want... you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

-Benjamin Button

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Where can I go from Your Spirit,
Where can I flee from your presence?
Psalm 139:7

Sometimes I ask God where He is, David asks where he can possibly go that he cannot find God and His presence.

Have you ever stay up with the radio on.. and suddenly at 6am, it plays the national anthem?
You get a shock and remember the days of waking up at five45 for school,
shudders...

and decides it's time for bed.

JIAYOU MY DEAR FRIENDS IN TDS.
It's submission week yet again.
Chiong ah!
Keep Calm and Carry On!

(check out the history of this poster HERE or HERE.
it's awesome for something created in 1939!)

Today I came home a little defeated from my bad attempt at yog design again (i hate yog i hate yog so much), tired from making the trip down to little india's travel agency, a bit regretful for not going to send Prajitna off... went to the mailbox, glad to see my buy tucked happily in the envelope.. and another envelope- in my head i was "oh-no-what-did-i-buy-what-did-i-buy-that-i-dont-rmb"

and it is actually



Huishan's thoughtfulness! Made my day so much.
Thanks Jasm for the clips too.
I love my friends :D
(next next week we can hang out already end block ohhhh)



Have been going to the airport so many times to do work these two weeks..
but just not today when Freedy flew off -_-
anyhowww, have a good time there, bro.

And in 1 month's time I will be at the airport with a luggage and a group of people I will know better.

Okay work work work work.
Ohhh deadlines.
*whams head.

I have been busy recently, running after time, hoping it will slow down a bit and let me catch up. I don't know why but I have been so not constructive.
I can coop myself at home all day and realise I haven't done anything much at the end of the day.

Spent some time walking around the grassy area near my place, climbing up longkangs with my deprived childhood, and sitting and humming and reading Psalms.
My heart's a little lighter, and I really can't wait for end of IP.

This is exactly one week late, but Ying's birthday was fab! :D



combined effort to keep the candles burning

we had Jap food, cake, make-up class, and
bouts of phototaking madness





(jasmine that pose very sec2 neoprint times..)





see you guys 5 months later for the next birthday, HOHO.

At times like this,
when it's 5ish and the birds are going to chirp, and my work is not done and still looking insipid (HAHA my lecturer's fav word), and I am supposed to be awake in an hour (but I haven't gone to bed!)...

I question if all this is worth a shorter life span, grey hair and eyebags.
I hope I find out that it is.

The picture was taken when we were a bit lost and locked in taka looking for the car, hahaha.
I have known this bunch for 7 to 10 years :O
They are my primary school tuition gang and my dear tutor.
(missing Novabelle who couldn't join us ):)

We try to meet up once a year, or whenever Amanda is free to organise something, HAHA. Every time we meet up we talk about the good old days, of having "a whale of a time", of swinging on the blue rusty swing that has already been disposed of, of Mrs Yee making pizzas, and on and on,

and of course catching up with new things.
It's nice to see everyone doing good and living well and meaningfully.

As we go about our different paths, may we still meet once in a while and remember of little things and strangely close old friends.

Haha, sorry for bad picture.
These are the young and hopeful ones looking at one another's works.
They are our old and new Y-Communications volunteers in our training workshop.
It's a nice feeling being able to pass something down and seeing them go bit by bit, and it is a very big blessing to be able to receive guidance when embarking on Design in my opinion. : )

May we bear much fruit and fruit that can be used for the kingdom through all these efforts!
I hope to know each and every one of you by name and by face, and see you grow towards serving Him : )

Jiayou you people!

(this is my pet lying on Jo's Harang's bed, HAHA)
I had a present on pet society from Xin and I opened it, thinking it was one of her fav gifts- the mystery box but noo0o0, it's the 2.5k luxurious octopus cap that I want!
And the sweet girl stopped by my place (as in real house, not virtual land) on Thursday night with toast and mango pudding. I told her randomly to come stayover and keep me awake and she replied saying sorry she can't but will give me food power, and I was like "huh what food?" and she suddenly pop up at my front door, awww.

Thank you dear, for being so thoughtful and sweet.