I have been amazing at wasting time recently.
It's like I know I have so much work to do, and my mind spaces out and empties itself of any constructive thought, and my hands surf around aimlessly..

and hours fly by.

These two months of Integrated Project made me rather tired, tired of design sometimes,
it's nice seeing things in better shape,
but... still far from amazing myself with what I can do with these hands.

And due to chatting with friends, I realised ever since I started this whole design thing, I haven't been doing any much with my life, since in church I do design, in school I do design... and free time is spent looking and criticising designs (auto already), and hanging out with people of course.

When I was younger I actually read manga, watch anime, cycle, exercise (HAHA)...
In primary school I actually had many hobbies- I collect all sorts of junk (coins, phonecards, stamps, stickers, beads, colour pens), I cycle when I can and feed stray cats near my Dad's workplace, I attempt to make food (even if it's just rootbeer Popsicles for Mothers' Day I think), I read scrapbooking magazines, I play lego.
And when I grew up, I got too focused HAHA. lost all that zeal and hyperactivity.

I always think if I publish a book about my life, the reader will fall asleep after half a chapter. I have this certain fear of being mediocre, of being normal, of being.. boring.
I hear tales of people roaming to far ends of the world, seeing sights, experiencing things, hear of people giving all for a dream they believe in and seeing it come to past...

and I wonder if I can do all that, and keep to God's plan too.

(See, told you I am awesome at wasting time these days.)